Perhaps the problem lies within my own extreme self-awareness. Maybe I have a tendency to over-analyze things. It is possible that I consider situations for such a prolonged period of time that they are eventually given a new meaning and I come to find fault where there is none. Although, it is just as possible that the fault I find has always been there but I had previously been blinded by a romanticized notion of arcadia within love.
The other night I suddenly paused for a moment and thought "how are people so young and inexperienced supposed to make this work at all?" and it caused me to reevaluate my motives. Perhaps this is meant to be taken impulsively. Maybe we were never supposed to think about it, just feel it. But that's impossible. Human emotion and thought process are so complex, it's a struggle to consider it all in such depth. I just... I have nothing more to say that wouldn't end up in a vicious cycle of my own inner conflict. I just would like for him to hear me.